Today I fell; Tomorrow I WILL stand up again.

I notice that since coming to UCSI, I kept myself busy and I keep on procrastinating my work and assignments. Maybe some of you might notice it too. I find that I spent too much time on Facebook recently until I didn’t have time to study. I keep blaming that my mid-term exams results fall because this semester I had to work for UCSI as student helper, have to study for my music theory and have to teach violin.

All these are just excuses! I have a friend, who just came in to UCSI taking Foundation in Music. She is even busier than me. She has to teach 20+ piano students, working as student helper for UCSI, practice her piano and clarinet as she just had her clarinet exam recently, but yet, she still have time to study to maintain her results.

I just had my last final exam paper for this semester in this morning. It was just introductory accounting and it was so tough for me. That’s because I didn’t study enough and this is the first time I have never finished studying the subject before going to exam. I felt so regretful that I had never paid attention to my lecture. I knew that all of my lectures are from 12.30pm to 2pm and I knew I’ll get hungry during this time and I knew I can never concentrate when I’m hungry but I didn’t do anything to improve my situation. And because of this, I couldn’t pay attention to most of the lectures and I didn’t know how to do tutorials and ended up so regretful of my action.

This exam I might fail. My scholarship might be taken away if I couldn’t maintain CGPA 3.2. And if I have no more scholarship to support my tuition fees, I would have to pay with my PTPTN loan. And I wouldn’t have extra money to buy luxury goods, like the Nikon D5100 that I am thinking of buying it now.

All I can do now is to wish that I can get at least CGPA3.2. This time I’ve realized how playful I am since coming to UCSI. Being active in UCSI doesn’t mean it will definitely affect my CGPA but I have to know how to manage my time well. This semester break I have to work for my accounting because this introductory accounting is the foundation of the future accounting papers that I’m going to take soon.

Though I might fail to achieve my target for this semester, I’ve learned a great mistake from this lesson. I hope I will be more discipline after this.