A New Kind Experience

My dad had spent his whole night with me at City Harvest Church last week Friday, as well as this week Friday, for their opening ceremony orchestra practice. They just moved their church from somewhere near Monash University to SS13/4 and so they had their opening ceremony during yesterday and today's church service.

Though we played only two songs, and combining two songs the duration didn't even last more than 5 minutes, it really gave me another kind of violin playing experience that I've never had before this.

This was the first time I played in an orchestra form, which consists of violin, cello, double bass, horn, trumpet, flute, and so on. Besides, this was my first time playing in total darkness, only our score sheets were lighted by clip LED lights. Means that we were just 'kelefe',  playing for the background music to accompany the choir.

I thought violin is one of very loud instrument (because it can cover the sound of a piano), but I was surprise that there was only a horn player playing in the orchestra but yet, it can be heard clearly. Sadly, I hate the sound of horn. I felt irritated by their sound, no idea why...

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Maybe some of you did notice that I posted a few very emotional blogs recently, but I'm okay now. I'm feeling much better after trying to think everything positively. And I enjoyed playing in an orchestra very much, it cheers me a lot! Oh, before I stop writing, I would like to wish my friends all the best for their studies in Canada. Hope to see them two years later :D

一日在家度过假期的心情

我在改造我的Blogspot设计时，
刚好我WindowsMediaPlayer播放着
Yiruma的歌。
好触动人生情绪感的歌，就如：
River Flows in You,
Time Forgets,
等等……

不知为什么
这次的假期
感到很不愉快。
虽然，
外表看起来很开心
能在学校帮AFSA办事，
一起和他们有说有笑，
一起牺牲这个假期呆在学校，
但我心里却还是
依依不舍……
依依不舍着一个刚认识不久
但将离开UCSI的一位
好友……

这种感觉，
就如我中五时，
将快毕业的时候，
要离开所有的
亲朋好友……
尤其是那时
在毕业典礼唱出
‘友谊万岁’时的那个时刻……
好悲哀，
好伤心，
好痛苦，
也好开心……

虽然只认识了
不到三个月，
但我们已是好朋友……
或许是因为Unity Camp，
促进了我们的友情。
也或许是因为在AFSA Night 的preparation之间，
曾经发生了些误会，
另我们更懂得珍惜
对方曾经所付出的一切，
加深了我们之间的友情……

他约我和他一起回中国，
我本身很想去……
但很可惜的，
就如我已预测的一样，
我父母不太放心我独自一个人去。
机票也蛮贵……
他们也劝我人不可貌相……
怕我被卖掉 =_="
但我相信Steven是不会陷害我的 :D

外面下着倾盆大雨……
就如我心情一样……
放心吧，
我会永远珍惜这段友情，
找一天我一定会去找你的！

Distance is no mean of barrier for friendship

I had no idea why there were so many unlucky things happened in one night. Firstly, my condo’s internet was down. Secondly, the newly bought washing machine pipe couldn’t fit into the tap and Leng Kai, my housemate, has to go down to Giant to buy another tap. Thirdly, the kitchen master tab was loosened out because it was spoiled and the whole kitchen flooded. He and I went to Giant again to buy another tap but sadly, the water still keep on leaking. I had to tighten the tap in order to stop the leaking but then I couldn’t use the sink tap for collecting filtered water. When I tried to loosen it a bit, the tap will loosen and there was once the whole tap came out and water started to flunk out vigorously. Luckily I wasn’t home alone at that moment and my housemate had helped me to turn off the main valve while I tried to stop the water from bursting out. I’ve mopped the kitchen so many times and I’m sure this month water bill will be a shocking amount.


. . . 

It was another fine day during my semester break in Cheras. I spent most of my holidays in Cheras just because to help out for AFSA Night preparation.

I felt bad of myself, kind of ‘bullying’ him (Steven) lately. I made him angry once, and I made him worries of the gossips about the logistic team in AFSA Night committees. But yet, he still treats me so nicely. Not many people have the chance to have good friends with foreigners. Am I the lucky one?

A gift from me :)

When we were cutting the AFSA ‘birds’ later in the morning, I had a little chat with Steven. (I always enjoyed those little chats with him because we seldom have chance to talk in face-to-face). We were talking about his coming plan and he said that he will be going back to China after his final semester (next semester) but will return for internship in Malaysia. That means after his last semester, I won't be able to see him anymore until his graduation next year. I felt so sad when I heard what he said. I felt like crying out but crying doesn't solve this matter and I couldn't do anything to solve this matter neither. It is our fate that he will sooner or later to leave Malaysia and leave all of his beloved friends here. I'm sure he'll have a harder time to leave all of his friends than me.

Later in the afternoon when we were having our lunch together, I was simply asking that when will he bringing me to China for a visit (as he promised me once) and instead of him simply answering my question, he answered it seriously that he can bring me to China when I have holiday. I was of course happy to hear that, so I suggested that perhaps I can follow him back to his hometown after his final semester. He even offers me to stay in his house instead of having me to stay in hotel. I can also stay in Jia Quan’s house because they both are staying nearby. My determination of going to China went down when he said that the air ticket is around RM1000. Maybe AirAsia will be cheaper but I don't understand why he likes to pay more when there is a cheaper alternative. Money maybe is not the main problem. The main problem is how should I tell my parents about this without having to beg to them. Even for myself, I felt a bit risky to go alone if I were to take the different flight to China and furthermore, I have no relatives over there. Anyway, I hope that they'll treat me as an adult (though I'm still a teen) and let me fly there alone. 


Time flies so quickly. I just knew him barely 3 months and another 2 more months I won’t see him anymore, perhaps won’t see him anymore……..anymore in my lifetime…. (sob). I’m really glad that I chose UCSI for my degree. And I’m really glad that I joined the Unity Camp. And I really appreciate that I have the chance to know him. He is one of the most care-for-others friend that I’ve ever knew. Perhaps I'll never be able to find someone like him anymore. Perhaps I was right that China people are indeed a more caring person than Malaysian Chinese, sadly. 

Sometimes I feel that God is being unfair to me. I always couldn’t get what I want in my life, be it tangible nor intangible. I always envy and jealous the others who can get everything they want easily. It makes their live much more meaningful because it fulfills their life satisfaction. But now, I think that God is fair to everyone actually. I realize that since I couldn’t get anything I want in my life, I will have to work hard to realize my wish. It makes me appreciate my life even more than those who can easily get what they want. It makes me realize that life is not that easy-going every time. Just like the stock market, the share prices will not keep on increasing without having down time. Life has to have sadness, then people will understand what is happiness. Perhaps distance is really a barrier to me now but I'm sure one day I'll be able to overcome the barrier and achieve my dream.

Another two more weeks Jia Quan will be leaving Malaysia. I plan to have a farewell outing together with them for the last time on next week  L. I haven’t got any idea what should I buy for him as a gift. Any idea?

Steven, Jia Quan, although China doesn’t allow the access to Facebook, but with today’s technology, I’m sure I will be able to keep in contact with you both, because I believe what Woodrow Wilson said was right, that “friendship is the only cement that will ever hold the world together”. Hope we will meet up one day…..

A day back to University during semester break

I was supposed to move out from my condo today, so I planned to take KTM down to Cheras during the afternoon. However, last night Elizabeth asked me out for a breakfast tomorrow morning in Cheras since she's going to hand in her proposal and I'm going to Cheras too. So, I accepted her offer and she'll drive me to Cheras too. Good for me, I don't have to take KTM to Cheras and wait for the shutter bus! And after our breakfast, we plan to pay a visit to Jia Quan's house since all of us are very free nowadays after exam.

However, all my planning went empty when I overslept this morning. I turned off my alarm and went back to sleep again! Maybe Elizabeth was right after all, she told me on the 5th SIDC module that that day was the first and maybe the last time she fetched me back to Kajang. And today she wanted to fetch me to UCSI but I didn't make it.

I had no choice but to take KTM to Cheras alone. It was quite some time since the last time I took KTM to univeristy. The train announcement speaker got improved when it announces the next station. UCSI shutter bus now stops at another different location. Instead of the bus stop at the road side at ERL, it now stops inside the car park of TBS. I didn't where exactly it stops so I waited at the other bus stop and luckily I reconfirm with Pauline and she corrected me. Just in time when I entered the car park, the bus came. 

I had my lunch at the cafeteria at the library. The cashier was an old aunty which I had never seen her before. She was very friendly. She called out the number of the food when it is done and she smiled at me when I took my dish :) 

I went back to my condo around 2.30pm. I managed to pack all my stuffs into bags and called Leng Kai, my new roommate, to help me move up my things to his room. 

Bye A-10-06 :)

Initially, I planned to leave all the things in his room and pay a visit to Jia Quan since I got nothing to do, but the sky was a bit cloudy when we moved up my stuffs to his house at 21st floor. He took quite some time to rearrange his room and clean up his room before I can put my things into his room, so it was already almost 5pm when I finished unloading all my stuffs. 

I planned to go out with Eddy and Rachaell for a dinner and movie after Rachaell's exam at 5.30pm, so I have to go to UCSI despite the sky cries. It wasn't that heavy until I was at Georgetown when it started to rain like hurricane. My jeans and shoes were all wet and the umbrella couldn't help much. 

I went up to exam hall to look for Rachaell and the path towards Block C from the library was a bit flooded, so my shoes totally soaked with all-in-one water! When I went up to the exam hall, she called me and told me that she and Phoey Khee were at the library that time. So, I had to head back to the library and my shoes soaked again for the third time. My plan of hanging out with friends was totally ruined out by the rain and also my wet shoes. I felt so uncomfortable walking in a wet shoe and I started to have headache because of the afternoon heat wave and a sudden cool temperature now. 

Steven was at the library at that time and Rachaell was keep asking him to join us but he didn't want to because he is going out with his friends. It was my idea to invite him out but he turned down my offer but yet, Racheall didn't give up asking him to come along. I felt a bit disappointed too when he insisted that he has to go out with his classmates.

Eddy didn't want to join us at last minute so Phoey Khee, who also didn't want to join us at first, offered to drive Rachaell and I to Leisure Mall but on the way there Rachaell kept 'begging' her to join us and finally she changed her mind!! (At least I didn't have to go out alone with Rachaell, XD).

We had dinner at Boston and it was quite tasty, just that the composition of the soup I think was comprised of 50% water 40% salt and 10% seasoning. And the hot Milo was so sweet too. Anyway, I didn't feel odd about this because most Malaysian loves salty and sweet foods. XD

After that, the girls went for shopping.............. window shopping, to be more precise. But thanks to them, I had a chance to see guys things. I spotted a Nike shoe, it was a very beautiful one, and also it's price, RM189!  I wanted to buy it, if I have the money. Sigh, my current most expensive shoe is just RM60, which is the one I wore it today and soak it with the all-in-one water... (sigh).... and this shoe was soaked with beach sand too when I wore it to the Unity Camp 2 months ago. Speaking of Unity Camp, I really miss those moments........ especially the moment I got some letters praising me a cute guy, and handsome guy. Too bad, it turned out to be Steven who wrote it...XD (Thought someone was interested in me).

Later at night Rachaell and I took taxi back to Angkasa. She wants to pay a visit to my new condo, to see how clean is our house. I was kind of angry with the taxi driver. The meter showed RM4.40 and I gave him RM5 he said he'll charge me RM5 since Taman Connaught has no customer! What the! But Rachaell managed to talk with him and he gave back 50 cent to me. Thanks Rachaell :D

When Rachaell's dad came to pick her, I offered to accompany her down. In the lift, I was telling that the lift doesn't have the number '4', 22nd floor, 23rd floor, 23A floor, followed by 25th floor. And suddenly there was a loud knock below the lift! Opps... Just realised that this month is the ghost month in the Chinese calender. 

Later when she left, I tried to ask Jia Quan out for a breakfast tomorrow morning because all of my classmates went back to their hometown and I have nothing left to eat. Sadly, he has to accompany most of his China friends to the airport tomorrow and couldn't eat with me. But he offered to have lunch with me tomorrow :) He told me Steven will be busy tomorrow too, because his girl friend is coming to Malaysia to look for him, how sweet. I was kind of envy when I heard that, so romantic. How I wish I have a girl friend too... Rachaell thought he lied to her that he said his sister and aunt are coming to Malaysia instead of his girl friend, but only later I found that it was Jia Quan's fault. It was not his girl friend who will be coming to look for him, but his sister and his aunt. And I felt odd when I asked Steven this question and he answered 'what girl friend'. Maybe Jia Quan didn't know that Steven has broke up with his girl friend. I wanted to correct him but he insisted that he knows Steven better than me. Ya, maybe I was wrong after all, but it was Steven who told me that she broke up with him already. How sad..... maybe having a very good friend is better than having a girl friend... haha... 

He told me that he and his other friends are going to Redang island later this month. I felt kind of sad because they China people have chance to go for holiday around Malaysia but I'll have to stuck in my house playing The Sims everyday. And the most disappointed is that I have never been to Redand island, not even Langkawi! I wish my UCSI friends will organize a trip to go for a holiday during the next semester break because my parents are busy with their works and my brothers have different holidays, we cannot match each other's time to go for a holiday. 

How I wish someone will care more about me, then my life will be much more interesting :D

Today I fell; Tomorrow I WILL stand up again.

I notice that since coming to UCSI, I kept myself busy and I keep on procrastinating my work and assignments. Maybe some of you might notice it too. I find that I spent too much time on Facebook recently until I didn’t have time to study. I keep blaming that my mid-term exams results fall because this semester I had to work for UCSI as student helper, have to study for my music theory and have to teach violin.

All these are just excuses! I have a friend, who just came in to UCSI taking Foundation in Music. She is even busier than me. She has to teach 20+ piano students, working as student helper for UCSI, practice her piano and clarinet as she just had her clarinet exam recently, but yet, she still have time to study to maintain her results.

I just had my last final exam paper for this semester in this morning. It was just introductory accounting and it was so tough for me. That’s because I didn’t study enough and this is the first time I have never finished studying the subject before going to exam. I felt so regretful that I had never paid attention to my lecture. I knew that all of my lectures are from 12.30pm to 2pm and I knew I’ll get hungry during this time and I knew I can never concentrate when I’m hungry but I didn’t do anything to improve my situation. And because of this, I couldn’t pay attention to most of the lectures and I didn’t know how to do tutorials and ended up so regretful of my action.

This exam I might fail. My scholarship might be taken away if I couldn’t maintain CGPA 3.2. And if I have no more scholarship to support my tuition fees, I would have to pay with my PTPTN loan. And I wouldn’t have extra money to buy luxury goods, like the Nikon D5100 that I am thinking of buying it now.

All I can do now is to wish that I can get at least CGPA3.2. This time I’ve realized how playful I am since coming to UCSI. Being active in UCSI doesn’t mean it will definitely affect my CGPA but I have to know how to manage my time well. This semester break I have to work for my accounting because this introductory accounting is the foundation of the future accounting papers that I’m going to take soon.

Though I might fail to achieve my target for this semester, I’ve learned a great mistake from this lesson. I hope I will be more discipline after this. 

A Sudden Decision

Today as usual I was having my revision in my room and suddenly my housemate knocked on my door. She told me that my bed and mattress are actually belong to the current master room owner, and the owner is leaving on this month 15th. So, he'll be taking back the bed and the mattress. Besides, the wardrobe inside my room, which  has plenty of lady's clothes, belongs to the previous owner of my current room. And now, she's selling the wardrobe off. 

I was totally shocked when I listened to it. I need to talk to someone about it so I went down to 7th floor to discuss with my friend. She too, couldn't believe my housemate is such a person. Didn't tell me about this when I moved in that time.

Just now around 6.45pm some people came into my room and took away my wardrobe. I have no where to put my clothes other than on the floor.

I hope my friend can help me to find another room soon, if not, I would have to move back everything back my home, and will never be able to enjoy hanging out with friends whenever I want. 

Exam+stress

Recently I met a new friend. She is a year 3 student of UCSI and is going to graduate soon. How sad every new friends of mine will be leaving me soon. 

From the first day I added her to my Facebook, we had so many things to chat. The first day we chatted till nearly 2am. Interestingly, most of our topics are related to our friend, Steven. I decided not to tell why.

Those of you who are close with me will know that I am a person who jokes a lot. Most of my words can't be trusted. But to those who doesn't know me, you will think I am a serious person. Because of this, I made her misunderstood my true meaning when I was chatting with her one day. She went to tell Steven about it and Steven wasn't happy to hear that. He called me that night and talked to me with a very serious tone and I felt a knife just stabbed into my heart. I had totally no more mood to do anything that night because I felt that I had lost a very good friend. 

I felt guilty of my doing but I decided to pull out the knife and continue my life pretending nothing had happened. I called him the next day morning asking things related to our club and he replied with his usual 'blur' tone of speaking. That night when I was going out with my friends to Leisure Mall for dinner, he SMSed me telling me that we are still friends, very good friends, in case I misunderstood him. Of course I felt glad that he never hated me but the Steven I once knew has now changed since that day. He never talk to me as much as before. Perhaps I was thinking a little too much because all of us will be having our final semester exams soon. 

I really hope I can get good grades for my exam but I'm having to many things to settle. I really hope everyone can do their best for their exams and hope I can spend the last few months wisely with my very best friend, Steven. Of course I couldn't forget Jia Quan too, who will be leaving Malaysia in about a month time. Wish the three of us can hangout once more like old times before Jia Quan leaving Malaysia until next January.