A dilemma over a difficult simple decision

There's one question that I've asked myself over and over again since my friend, Swee Leong, had asked me whether me and one of my friends want to move to his house next year or not.

The problem is....

After two months staying in my current place, I have 'love' towards this house, though at first I really felt awkward being in a total strangers' house filled with non-Malaysians. That kind of feeling I will never forget in my life because Steven had helped me to make me feel like I am part of their family, because they care each other very much, just like brothers. This is because they have no relatives here and they had to depend on each other and so this 'family' gave me a very special feeling when I started staying here compared to when I was staying with Malaysian students.

And because of having 'love' towards this house, as well as felt unreluctant to move out from my step brother's house, plus I am sick of moving here and there so many times, I took quite long time to consider whether I should move? or stay? taking count of the rent in both sides, as well as the behavior of the housemates.

At first I really wanted to stay because Steven is going back China soon, so I thought of staying here to spend with him these last few moments before he leaves. However, before I moved into his house, I told him I am just going to stay for 2 months and had promised my friend that I'll move out with him next year. So it's quite a difficult yet simple decision to make, whether I should stay or move? It's just that I went into dilemma for quite a long time.

But finally I've decided....

...that I'll move out...

Why? It's a long story to tell, but in short, I don't want to be in a place that will be bored to me when someone is not at home...

An off day for my new job

I've been looking for a part-time job recently around Low Yat, Time Square, Viva Home, Leisure Mall and around UCSI but none will hire a person just to work for a month. On the 17th of November 2011, I almost gave up in searching for job and so when I was going back Semenyih to teach violin on that night, I went to Tesco Semenyih and saw vacancy in Maxis Center and so I asked for it and gave them my details.

Around 5.30pm that day when I just woke up from my nap, I got an unknown call. It was from that Maxis Center saying that I'm hired!! I was so happy that I finally got hired and will start working in the following Monday.

Being a salesman isn't as easy as I thought. It is quite tiring but I learned a lot of new things that I've never learn before.

Yesterday Nilai UC had an awards day for foundation studies and I was invited to the ceremony. And because of this, I had to take a day leave.

As usual when I was studying in Nilai UC, I'll have to wake up at 6am to get the 7am train. It had been a long time since the last time I took the Seremban KTM. After reaching Nilai bus terminal, I took the shuttle bus to the college. I saw many unfamiliar faces around the campus now because I had never been here for the past 6 months.

Coming back to Nilai UC gave me a very relaxing feeling as this campus was built to be like a resort. I love the campus very much actually because of its lush green campus, surrounded by forest. The air is really fresh and the surrounding is very peaceful and quiet. How I wish UCSI has this kind of campus...

The ceremony was said to start at 8am but it started in 9am instead. It wasn't as big as UCSI awards day few months ago, but it had improved since the last year awards day for foundation studies, where I was one of the committees.

I was quite disappointed because many of my old friends weren't in the college that day and I regretted that I didn't post it in Facebook that I was going to Nilai UC. However, I felt glad that I met some of my good friends over there. Two more weeks will be their finals, wish you all good luck!!

At night I taught my violin students for the last lesson. However, one of my students was absent and didn't notify us. I felt a bit sad to stop teaching them because I really wanted to teach them, just that I couldn't handle my time table properly and ruined my studies. Starting from today, I am as if a bird just released from a cage being trapped for a year!

I AM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sem break in Seri Cendekia

As mentioned in my previous blog, I moved out on 1st of November and I never thought that I would came back to Seri Cendekia on last Saturday. Initially I planned to come back on this coming Thursday but because of certain reasons, I had to come back on Saturday :)

Tomorrow 7/11/11, my roommate will be moving to Kepong to work part time job. Initially I had 4 roommates and tomorrow I'll be sleeping alone.

So boring...

Seri Cendekia

1st November 2011, Tuesday, was the day that I hated the most. It was the day that I have almost wish that it will never come. Why? Because it was the day that I officially moved out from Seri Cendekia. I was so sad because nobody helped me to carry my luggage down. Not even Steven because he was working. This situation really suits a chinese idiom, "悄悄地我走了，正如我悄悄地来；我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩". 

The week before my final I told my housemates that I will be leaving soon and they had asked me to stay. I was surprised that they asked me to stay even though I only spoke to them less than 10 sentences in these 2 months time. Was there something else behind their sentences? Though I would love to stay, but due to certain reasons, I had to move out.

I still remember the first day I moved into Steven's house was the first day I moved to Cheras. But because that house's internet line was down, Steven had asked me to come our his house to do assignment. My first impression on his house was that the house was very messy. I was shocked too to see that the master room was decorated with cartoon carpets, children chairs and table, and toys as well. Perhaps these university students needed some toys and children stuffs to make themselves stress-free...

Days after days, I had stayed there for 3 consecutive nights. I was really touched by Steven's friendliness even though that time we didn't really know each other. The fourth day before I left, he asked me to come visit anytime I want, his house will always welcome me. But I didn't want to burden him anymore so I never go to his house anymore since that day until I moved in to his house.

Actually I never thought I could move into his house at first. After 1 month staying in Cheras Angkasa, I had to move because I told my housemate that I would only stay for a month. So Leng Kai offered me to stay with him and so I accepted. However, his room only has 1 bed and during those few days I stayed in his room, he slept on the floor. I didn't like this situation so I asked Steven whether I can move into his house since there will be an empty bed starting September.

While waiting for a reply from Steven, I thought I won't be able to move in because all of them are China Chinese while I'm just a Malaysian Chinese. After some time Steven still hadn't reply me so I guessed I was right, that they don't really like Malaysian Chinese. However, I was wrong. Immediately after I told him that, he said I can move in starting September semester. I was very happy to hear that.

5th Septmber 2011 was the day that I officially moved into Steven's house. The first few days being a housemate of some China people wasn't comfortable to me. 

I felt so uneasy Steven helped me so much. He helped me to arrange my stuffs properly. When I went to bed, he came to my room and asked whether I felt cold or not. Not many housemates are so much caring to the others.

Because at the beginning period when I moved in, the house has 6 people staying, including me. The house was so noisy and I was so uncomfortable to study and those times I really wanted to go home. At his home, I very seldom talk to anyone, including Steven, so I will only talk to those who were online at that moment. As I had got used to tell people my problems through online, I continued to do that even though after Steven and I became brothers and caused him disappointment because we promised to tell each other if we faced any problems. The day during AFSA Night review was his most disappointed day he had, because I was so reluctant to tell him my little problem because it will cause me embarrassment. But at the end I told him about it because I didn't want him to be upset. 

After some times staying with Steven, and after some conflicts we had, our friendship had became stronger and stronger until it became brothership. And because of this, I felt so reluctant to move out from his house. It's very hard to find a very nice housemate, a very caring housemate, especially, that will take care of you when you fall sick.

Anyhow, I had no choice but to accept the fate, that I have to leave his house. Thinking with a positive side, I should be grateful that I had the chance to stay with such a nice housemate, a nice brother ;-)

Today is 4th November 2011, it has been the fourth day since I moved out. Though sometimes I felt that I missed that house, my ex-housemates, and also my big brother, I have always try to make myself busy to stop thinking of them, especially Steven, who has created so much unforgettable memories we spent together. It's a bit hard for me to stop missing everything now, but I believe time is the only matter that can change me. 

However, I do not wish Steven will forget about me just because he has a girlfriend now. Wish he'll always call me a brother even after months or years we never meet each other, because once a brother, forever a brother!