Last dinner for 2010 and Resolutions for 2011

31th December 2010 is the last day of 2010. It was a windy and sunny Friday morning; guess is because Chinese New Year is just around the corner. Wonder why the days just before Chinese New Year is always hot and windy. For the first time I drove the car with mum and dad to our garden’s Tesco with my newly bought sunglasses yesterday at Kajang Focus Point. It was cool… Actually dad planned to buy a new 42in LCD at Tesco because of the offer but so happen they were out of stock, we can only buy the display model so we didn’t buy it. They then went to Kajang Tesco to try their luck to buy it but it was fruitless. Perhaps it is now the end of the year, they didn’t want to buy new stocks. 

Evening I helped mum to prepare the last dinner for 2010. We had fish and chips and a whole turkey, all home made. Even though every year I hope that one day I could celebrate with my friends, count down with them together, but nonetheless, celebrating with family isn’t that bad though…

As usual at night after dinner I’ll watch TVB from my laptop, while watching suddenly I received a call from an old friend, whom I dislike him by his character. He invited me along with his friends to go the Shah Alam park for a walk tomorrow morning but I told him I’m having a violin class tomorrow so I can’t go.

He might sounds like a nice person, asking a friend out for a gathering, but the conversation not ends yet. After telling him I’m not free to go, I told him maybe next time I’ll go out with him. However, He said next time they won’t be going to that Shah Alam park anymore. The way he spoke to me was like saying that I won’t have the chance to go there anymore, and it’s like he’s ‘laughing’ at me. I don’t understand what so particular if I can’t pay a visit to that park. I wouldn’t go even if I don’t have any program tomorrow. 

The conversation continues with me telling him this Sunday I’ll be having a gathering with my old classmates. When he asked and I told him whom am I going out with, he said ‘cheh!’. Wah, that time I was getting annoyed by him. How could he insults my friends! And then the conversation ends.

I couldn’t believe I have this kind of ‘friend’ saying these things to me at the last few hours of 2010. Anyway, I didn’t think so much about this as I was busy watching the TVB. 

The clock strikes 12am. My Facebook wall all posted with wishes to friends saying Happy New Year 2011. The sky outside my room window filled with bright colourful sparks of fireworks. My phone, however, only received 3 wishes from my friends. 

The year 2010 finally comes to an end. It wasn’t a very good year for me as compared to 2009. Year 2009 was all about fun, happiness, sadness and unwillingness because it was the last year for many Form 5 students in secondary schools. Few days after Christmas I went back to Yu Hua, my old secondary school, to help my brother to apply to study there. The last time I stepped in this school compound was when I received my SPM results in March. Although 9 months later I stepped back here, I still can remember everything happened in this school. Suddenly I felt regret for taking Foundation instead of studying Form 6. Anyway, what has passed had passed, I cannot turn back now but to look forward to my last semester in Foundation. 

It is now 1^st of January 2011. I can’t think of many resolutions for 2011. Maybe I can list out a few.

1. I have to change myself to be more optimistic in doing everything, including group assignments in University. Even though my group mates wouldn’t lend a helping hand to finish the task, I have to do all by myself, willingly. Instead of complaining to everyone, I should thank them as I can learn more.

2. I have to put more efforts on my violin. The reason I stopped staying in hostel is to practice my violin well at home. I’m paying RM200 per month for professional violin course and I couldn’t waste my time doing nothing in my hostel. I MUST graduate my violin before I finish my Degree in 2013. 

3. I need to be sharper and more focus in driving so that my dad has confidence on my driving and hope that he’ll let me drive alone one day without his sitting beside me looking at the mirror to lookout for cars for me. Every time I have violin and theory class he has to wait for me 1 hour each doing nothing until the class ends and fetch me back home. If I could drive alone, he wouldn’t waste so much of his time.

4. 10^th January 2011 my second semester result will out.  I hope I can get GPA 3.7 or above to maintain my scholarship. I’ll feel that I’m stupid if a person who gets 8A in SPM like me but couldn’t get GPA3.7 or above in Foundation where the papers in Foundation are so easy. 

5. After I graduated my Foundation course in May, I hope to find a good job with good salary as my part time while waiting for UCSI September intake. Yes, I’ve decided to transfer to UCSI for my degree. Read more on my previous blog. Hope the job I get will be related to accounting. 

The list will go on and on. The most important thing is that I hope 2011 will be a great year to me, just like in 2009. I’m sad that I can’t find a true best friend in Nilai University. The time is now 2.55am 1^st of January 2011. I cannot sleep because my stomach was very full before this, so I decided to write this blog. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011! Hope everyone’s wish will comes true………

KLIUC; Nilai UC; UCSI?

Did i make a wrong move 8 months ago? All I know is that I made a wrong decision taking diploma in mobile and network technology in KLIUC. But on the first day of class, I applied to withdraw from that university because I dislike the environment. So, I chose to study in Nilai UC although I would be much pleased if I could study in INTI University instead because it gives me the University feeling, whereas in Nilai, I got a hospital feeling.

From the first semester Nilai had gave me a bad impression, just like what I had mentioned in the previous blog. I can't wait to transfer to another University, which is UCSI because it is much cheaper.

I went to UCSI open day last Saturday 18th December 2010. Actually last Wednesday I went there once to ask because so happen I was in KL that time. The marketeers told me I couldn't use my second semester result to apply for degree even though I have finish my foundation program next year, unless my foundation result is out then I can apply to study there. I couldn't make sure of what they told me so I went for their open day to confirm it because I have a friend who had just finished her foundation program and will study in UCTI next January. She told me she already applied to study there by using her second semester results. So after confirming that I couldn't apply for their May intake so I have to wait for September intake.

During the open day, I talked to the accounting lecturer there. She said she needs to see the syllabus of my subjects in my foundation to see whether I have to take their foundation program or not. I was suddenly so scare that I couldn't go straight to degree with my foundation from Nilai and I have no choice but to continue in Nilai. But I think she's wrong. I should be able to go straight to my degree using my Foundation cert from Nilai.

I was also disappointed to know that I couldn't apply for their May intake because my last semester in Nilai will end later than UCSI, so my result will not out until around mid of may. That time when I knew this I told myself that I made a wrong move to study in Nilai. I have even thought of directly apply to study their foundation for next semester and immediently withdraw from Nilai UC but how can I do this?

So now I really hope everything goes well as planned. I hope to study degree in UCSI next year September and not Foundation! Even they really couldn't accept my Nilai foundation, what should I do? Should I take their foundation or continue my degree in Nilai? To that extend I could only blame myself for choosing the wrong University at the first place.

University Life

People say university life is the best time in a person's life. Well, I agree that statement but to a certain extent. A few more weeks that will be the end of my second semester in university. Within these two semesters here, I learnt a lot new things in my life. I'm not talking about time management or do my own laundry myself, but I'm talking about people. 

Because in secondary schools we don't do assignments, to be more specific on what I'm trying to say, group assignments. So, we never doubt on one's real character. Here in university, we have assignments, and a lot of it. Some assignments are to be done in groups. Well, that's what I want to share with you, that I dislike group assignments. Why do I say so? People say it's better to have more human (more brain power) to finish an assignment, but to me, of all the group assignments, most of the work I did alone. Though my groupmates had provided informations from the internet to me, but those weren't the information I needed. So, practically I can say that most of my friends here never put in full efforts in doing the assignments with me. 

Today in English class, my lecturer saw my work (not assignment) with my roommate's were the same. It was true that I photocopied a set for my roommate because he asked me to do so. I was reluctant to reject him because I can't think of an excuse to do so. Fortunately my lecturer knows our character so she knew that it was my work, and of course I can get an F grade if I were to take a lying test. I felt guilty too because last semester my English lecturer told me that I should not allow anyone to see my assignment and I repeated my mistake again this semester, if fact, it isn't the first time in this semester that I allowed my friends to see my work. I was afraid to.... you know... 'share' my work with them. I scare I would hurt their feelings or maybe they will think that I'm stingy. 

You know, I'm very unsatisfy with this university. I'm unsatisfy with the management here, some lecturers here and most of the students here. Before I chose to enter any university, I always wanted to have a UK degree. In this university however, they offer dual degree, that is we'll get a local cert and a UK cert. However, I was thinking if offering a UK cert is so important, how come the number if students enrolling in universities without UK cert (Eg: UTAR, UCSI) is much more than the university here? And the students in those universities are much more brilliant than here. How do I compare? By looking at how many students got scholarships. I agree with people saying that usually the rich people doesn't like to study, this explains why the students in UTAR and UCSI are much better students than here.

My hunch might not be right but I hope I made a good conclusion. After my foundation I would definitely leave this university even though many asked me to stay. I hope next semester there won't be many group assignments. I feel that it is very unfair for me because my groupmates don't have to contribute anything but they can get marks for it. And I'm afraid to report to the lecturer... Oh God, please help me, I don't know what to do.....

Violin exam result

On 27th of September 2010, after my last class at 3pm, together with a friend of mine, Liong a.k.a Handsome Liong ^^, went to Trevor’s room to ‘kacau’ him… When we were about to leave his hostel, I received a SMS from my music teacher. Before opening the message I saw a little part of the message and it was my 2 brothers piano and my violin exam results. I was a bit scare to open the message as I mentioned earlier than i had a hunch that I’ll fail my exam. Even though I was afraid to know my result, but soon or later I’ll still know my result. So I pressed the ‘view’ button and it says:

ABRSM piano exam jun-aug 2010 result: ee hahn distinction 134, joe distinction 130, jen distinction 133. Congratulation! Ms lee.

“Joe distinction 130”! You see that? I got distinction? How could it be? I played so poor on that day but instead of a pass (which is my highest expectation), I got a distinction. “Am I dreaming?” I asked Liong. No, I wasn’t dreaming, I was very sure that I wasn’t dreaming. I was so happy that I almost yelled it out as loud as I could! At that moment I wished to let everyone to know my result but it could be wrong information sent by my teacher unless she tells me face-to-face. But I posted in Facebook that I got distinction and funny, a friend of mine jealous about it… haha… even though he already passed his grade 8 piano exam.

I once told myself if I could pass my violin exam I’ll continue my grade 8 exam but with another teacher. My eldest sister’s friend recommended me a famous violinist in Malaysia, Mr. Lau Yew Hann, sounds like my name. You can google his name to see his biography. Such a professional teacher wouldn’t it costs me a lot? Well, I’ll know when I call him. But till today I don’t dare to call him because he is not a teacher but an orchestra player, so it’s kinda weird for a stranger suddenly calls him and ask to teach him. You know, my situation is like the Malay form 5 novel, Konserton Terakhir where the main character, Hilmi had an orchestra player to teach him, and he ended up to be so famous in Malaysia that even the Agong (If i’m not mistaken) came to watch his play. But of course I wouldn’t want to end up dying at such a young age. So I think I’ll wait till this Saturday for my teacher to tell the truth about my result and see whether she can calls him to teach me or not.

2nd Semester day-2-Great+loneliness

The second day of class started with CSC111, which is about computing. While waiting for the lecturer, suddenly a young chinese guy came half way in and asked a guy which is my classmate same course was that CSC111. And then later he came back in and told the class “Good morning everyone” and walked out again to make a call. The whole class of us surprised, so he is our lecturer. I thought he is a student from Foundation in Science and Technology because he don’t look like a lecturer. After some time interacting with him, then we knew that he is currently 35 doing PhD.

The greatest news I had always been wanting to hear it: we were again sorted for the English class, and very lucky, I remained in Ms. Sharifah’s class. Yesterday I told myself that I rather change to other class than staying with my classmates who were previously with me from Dr. Jeya’s class. But today, many previously from Ms. Zadza’s class came to our class and some of us moved out. So, now I can don’t worry too much about this anymore.

Evening after class I felt very lonely because many of my friends went back home today. I was worried that tonight nobody eats with me dinner. Luckily I have two friends eating in Thinking Cup (a lousy restaurant). We waiting for about 40 minutes only the foods arrived. Luckily they were playing a movie for us to see, but they put the wrong type of movie. They put up a wolfman movie where there were scenes of the wolfman tearing a human’s flash, and the blood spilled out vigorously, and also a scene where the wolfman cut a human’s head down and so on… Hey bro, we’re eating you know! I ordered a Portuguese Chicken. When the food arrived, I saw the plate had only a small piece of chicken thigh, about 8 sticks of fries and few pieces of vegetables, and it costs me RM11! Luckily it tasted delicious, unlike the first time coming here to eat, the fish-and-chip was not fully cooked.

Next semester Kam Yin, David, Wee Lim and the others are most probably not going to continue their degree here so I won’t be seeing them after this. I wonder that time who would be eating with me during dinner? Because currently I always eat with Kam Yin and Wee Lim. I felt that loneliness is approaching me, good friends are leaving me, just like after my SPM last year. And what will happen after that? Good friends turned into strangers……. That’s my friends cycle….

First day of class, got back my scholarship

Today our first class was English class. We have 5 English classes with 4 different lecturers, one of the lecturer was Ms. Sharifah. The seniors told me this lecturer is much better than their Mr. Manickam. While not many attended the 8am class (because they want to attend the 3pm class), we were sorted to our classes. According to them, those who were previously from Ms. Zadza will be going to Mr. Manickam. Those who were from Dr. Jeya will be going to Ms. Sharifah. There are a good news and a bad news here. Good news is I’ll be going to Ms. Sharifah’s class, which I hoped to be in her class. Bad news is I’ll be again with my ‘lovely’ classmates. After we had been sorted out, we went to our own classroom respectively. Disappointedly, my class only had 2 students including me. There should have about 10 students, but none of them came, that’s why I called them ‘lovely’ classmates. When Ms. Sharifah asked both of us whether we want to be with our previous presentation group, immediately I said NO. I would rather be in Mr. Manickam’s class bore to die than going back with my group mates. So she said she’ll see whether will rearrange the whole English class. I hope she will.

In the 10am class, which was Economics, I was surprised that there were 40+ students in the name list, where are the rest? There should be 50+. Did they failed the exam or what? Never mind about that, but till then I still haven’t get my results, have I failed Economics last semester? Maybe not, because my name appeared in the name list.

During lunch time, my friend Kam Yin took me To Desa Palma to eat. There were 7 of us went together, of course with 2 cars! While eating, suddenly David received a call from the office people that he can maintain his scholarship despite his result of GPA 3.68 where he should have at least GPA 3.7 to maintain. I was glad about it. Then David asked me to get my results first see whether I can ‘begged’ for the scholarship or not. I don’t think I’m that lucky to get GPA 3.6, maybe I can only get GPA 3.5 the most? Well, I still have to wait till 2pm only can take the results. But I don’t understand why we have to take our results at a certain time (2pm-4pm) when our results were out since Sunday.

At 1pm class, which was Maths, the lecturer was Ms. Norhana. From the way she spoke to us, I knew that she is a kind and friendly type of lecturer. At the end of the class, when I was about to ask her whether Form 6 Mathematics T is suitable for our Maths reference, then someone is calling me, it was from the office! I though they will ask me to go for the counsellor thing but no, it was about my scholarship. She told me that I can maintain my scholarship because my result is very close to GPA 3.7. I was so happy to hear that! And guess what, I got GPA 3.63! I never thought I can get such result! When I finished talking to her, Ms. Norhana had left the room.

A promise is a promise. Even though I got back my scholarship, I still have to work hard for this semester because I target my Foundation In Business to have at least CGPA 3.7! This semester there are two subjects I’m worried about, that are Maths and Malaysian studies. My seniors said their class has about 20+ students and 30% of them failed their Maths. So I hope I can do better this semester!

First semester result

This morning I was so eager to take my result to see whether I can maintain my scholarship or not. My friends got their results yesterday 9am onwards although it was a Sunday so I thought today also can take at 9am.

However, I was wrong.

When I entered the resource centre, they asked us to come at 2pm to collect our results. Before I left, the exam unit called me and told me a bad news. I was unable to continue my scholarship. This news, I had been expecting since before exam. I wasn’t ready for my exam because I was too playful and what I studied can’t enter my brain too.

When I told my dad about this, he was upset about this. I knew he will but I did my best during my exam and I wasn’t feeling well during my English exam. I know all these are not the reasons for me not getting good results. I should have studied hard since the first day of class. But it’s all too late now…..

What I can do now is I must change my lifestyle. I cannot ‘lepak’ at night, waste time ‘facebooking’ and many more. Hope next semester I can get good results and continue my scholarship for my third semester. Although I know that second semester onwards it won’t be so easy life anymore but I only taking 5 subjects compare to SPM 11 subjects! Hope won’t be so unlucky to get lousy lecturer like last semester.